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Love is our Resistance
They'll keep us apart, they won't stop breaking us down

Biography;

Ohhh i'm a Day Dreamer which living in my own dreamworld. SpaghettiSausage in MSN, i don't eat spaghetti. Photography and Backpacking are the dream. A die-hard fan of WhiteRedBlackGray. i don't hate other colours neither. Sleep,Eat and Snap are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Liar. I hate it alot.. Trust is like a paper, once it is crumpled, will never be perfect again. In love with FOODS,FOOTBALL, READING and VINTAGE too!♥ :D


Melodiesbox;

When life leaves you speechless,
music provides the lyrics to help you find the meaning. -The Guitar Store_


MusicPlaylist
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Sweetdesires;

Make a wish ♥
Camera/DSLR/Lomo
ElectronicDictionary
Brace
My own bedroom
Earphone that will last longer
Backpacking! *alone with loves
A new purse
Vintage/ Retro/ Fossil/ Handmade
NorthStar high cut shoes
Runaway
Eat and Shop till i drop! xD
Laptop/MAC
A good climber of my WALL

ShoutScream;


Linksboard;

27 May 2012
BOND? SCREW IT.



everyone is thinking, I WANT. 
but how many people is thinking, DO YOU WANT? 

stereotype, prejudice, whatever shit. 
why am I seeing all these shit? why am i alone?
send me back to mars please. WTF.

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:41 PM

21 May 2012
i like, oh no, i love.

hello bloggie, long time no see ahh.
learning not to recall bad feelings, sometimes.
failed i guess, I'm like facing constipation,
constipation of expressing, lots of shits inside my heart,
i cant cry, let me sweat then.

bought new phone, 
thank you w580i, for four years,
acting as my capture tool, and now, 
i treat the white baby as my second camera (:
no, i still love my dslr, please don't doubt my heart,
and, i love my painkillers (:

passion for photography flaming, for life.
is okay, people never understand will never do,
and again, I'm a weirdo in their eyes, 
always do, hahaha.

sick of the word RICH, 
maybe i should just laugh on it, 
earth peoplesss, yewww.

we need responsibility on assignments,
but heart and passion on production,
guess I've been through the worst,
and now I'm just repeating all those shits again,
yet I'm suppressing it? or I've finally realize that,
i should never waste my tears and heart on things that never meant to change,
especially when it is dealing with the core, peoples' attitude.
should now place MYSELF as my own priority, go for WORTHY ones.



♥our lips must always be sealed
10:38 PM

12 May 2012
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♥our lips must always be sealed
11:50 PM

yewww.




现实与梦想的差距,
是我无法想像的艰难。
请加油,请坚持。
一定要。


事半功倍。
事倍功半。
我是后者。


很累,很愁。
我想我有忧郁症。





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11:32 PM

07 May 2012
blue.


那是最根本的问题,
有点出乎意料的答案,
我还是,很难过。

结果,然后,我不懂。
妈的我很难过,我很失落,
很困扰,压力令该死的经期乱掉。

我说,还真羡慕你。
虽然。但是。那是我渴望的。

我最想要的,却是他们最不想要的。
说好不哭,说好不崩溃要坚强,
对不起,我食言了,对不起。
对着镜子哭得乱七八糟,对不起折磨你了-.-

你不懂,我有多么地渴望,离开,
想重新开始,人事物,思维。
至少,让我试一试,然后我会乖乖回家,
但是,如果我真的是向往那样的生活,
可不可以,让我去追求我要的?
我懂,这样的我很糟糕,
但请相信,我有多么的挣扎,
多么的放不下,尤其在我知道我猜对了一切。

梦想碎了一地,但我会一片一片的捡起来,
绝不让它像破碎的心的那样,
只是,不能让另一颗心碎掉。

不再是心和脑在吵架,而是心和心。


♥our lips must always be sealed
10:37 PM

06 May 2012
):



Phobia ahh deng.


:|





♥our lips must always be sealed
9:54 PM

oh really.

有些事情,我爱一个人。
我说,可以这样和你聊天真好,
一定要幸福,才能带正能量给我。

收拾心情收拾心情收拾心情,

才发现我真的很很很不想回去上课,
课业的压力感,还有那些令我疲惫不堪的,
当然,偶尔会想念快乐欢笑声,聚在一块的时候,
但是,还是算了吧,当作是我变懒了吧,
真正的原因,算了。


我应该期待的。应该。


星座说我棘手的金钱问题会缓解,
 希望吧,因为欲望实在是太大了。

♥our lips must always be sealed
9:32 PM

indeed wonderful (:






♥our lips must always be sealed
6:41 PM

AH. DD. PF.


only if you see the beauty with your heart, 
and appreciate those efforts made.


♥our lips must always be sealed
12:11 AM

04 May 2012
annoying orange backpack lol.

可是我觉得很累。 
可是我只想一个人。 
可是我想说,我真的想离开。

人前一个样,人后,妈的很累。
我不想说话,我不想思考,我不想感受。 
他说一切的一切,对啊,一切都不再是一切, 
没有一个是对劲,没有点头,没有强烈赞同。 

那个你,在哪里? 
志同道合的你,在哪里? 
不需要多说,却明白我的你,在哪里? 
有时候,我是怀疑论者,我不相信这个那个, 
但是,我却对soulmate这回事还抱着希望。 
我知道,每个人不同嘛,可是就原谅我真的累坏了, 
没有心灵上的沟通与共同的分享,让我好沮丧。 
你到底在哪里?我很累,啊。 
累得我只想和带给我快乐的他们相依为命, 
像个活在自己的世界的宅人。 

"不要期望所有人都懂你, 你也没必要去懂所有人; 
當有個懂你的人出現時,一定要好好珍惜那個人。只因,不容易。"

我说,钱,我需要钱。 
但我才发现,一直让我懊恼的,做不下决定的,是他们, 
我害怕,我担心,伤害他们的感受,令他们失望, 
我更不忍,在外看世界的时候,却要他们为我担心, 
我不想,成为他们担忧,夜晚失眠的原因。 
我无法假装不了解他们的想法,做我爱做的事, 
我在乎,毕竟世界上或许没有人比他们那么的爱我了, 
尽管,他们并不了解我。事实是,这个人还未存在。 
我的责任感近日越来越强烈,有时候,良心谴责我。 
原来,我过不了自己那一关。 

怎么办。我无法向他们坦白。 
我无法告诉他们我的难过,我想离开的原因。 
我更无法表达我内心渴望的生活,对摄影的追求, 
很多很多很多很多。 

父母的心,视而不见,我做不到。






每当我快撑不住时,这在提醒我,谢谢。 
“你永远不该给自己崩溃的机会, 因为这会变成一种习惯, 
一而再,再而三地发生。 反而,你必须训练自己保持坚强。” 
 摘自 享受吧一个人的旅行。

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:23 PM

02 May 2012
0.0593


ahh today is a rainy day,
nap without sweat, thanks rain muahaha!
even now, after almost five hours of raining,
outside are still drizzling, and feeling so cool ::DD

not satisfy but grateful, 
forever stuck at 2.9, aaarrgggh.
yet just want to thanks to SOME tutors,
which taught us really patiently, with hearts.
and, peoples, who gave unexpected supports during resit paper HAHAHA!








attitude. effort. luck.

♥our lips must always be sealed
6:40 PM

01 May 2012
boh lui ar deng.

Evil smile!

screaming inside.


♥our lips must always be sealed
6:22 PM

30 April 2012
chocolatesssss.


woke up. don't care. let it be.
moving on moving on moving on. 

yeah :D





♥our lips must always be sealed
5:27 PM

29 April 2012
friends and strangers.

MISUNDERSTANDINGS everywhere,
what if im the only one who care?
what if im the only one fight for it?

I'm tired. running out of certain kind of energy. 
heart doesn't work well with brain, 
couldn't express well, it stuck there, 
tend to find a way out through the pathetic tears..
but imma holding it back, restricting its presence.

keep deleting.




♥our lips must always be sealed
11:54 PM

ha ha ha



wanna go back to mars.




♥our lips must always be sealed
6:24 PM

27 April 2012
Avengers not bad :D


ohhh. I'm so ... lost. 
tell me, tell me... 
tell me what am i suppose to do next.


as holiday is going to end,
i'm getting awake, awake and back to reality.
i suffered from insomnia, so shit. 
get tension for no reason, i know, the unknownsssss.
 i want my good sleeping quality back, please :/



♥our lips must always be sealed
11:26 PM

24 April 2012
fighting!






坚持。





♥our lips must always be sealed
10:25 PM

Big heart.





close your eyes and listen to this version, a sense of calm make me smile (:
hey.. let me sleep well tonight okay..



♥our lips must always be sealed
1:11 AM

23 April 2012
out of sight.




" If someone constantly makes you unhappy, then you must build up the courage to let that person go. Its strange how things change, and the one person you're close to seems like the person you now know the least.. Some people are going to leave, but that's not the end of your story. That's the end of their part in your story. "


i appreciate your absence,
out of sight, out of mind. 
I'm much more happier (:





♥our lips must always be sealed
11:28 PM

waiting for... dinner :D

Slept in 6am this morning, .... indeed torturing enough.
and yeah, time really flies, always do, in light speed.
no longer year 1 year 2 but DBC3, ahhh, me don't likey :/
must be alot of decision to deal with in coming days, and also separation..

however, hello and goodbye are always in a package,
 
cherish every single moments before goodbyesss come and,
i should looking forward for more hellosss in my life. (;

and now, I'm sweating, can't bear with the heat outside,
aaarrgggh sooooo HOT! can i have a can of cold cocacola?
you know i used to not active at sports at all, except badminton,
i'm lazy and zero talent at sports, somehow the desire of exercising is back recently,
or i should say the desire of sweating and make myself feel younger,
miss jogging in the early morning with fresh air and light breeze,
there were those days, two years ago.. hahaha -.-
i want it back, cut fats stay healty! :O



and hey, NEW BLOGSPOT I DON'T LIKE YOU, 
troublesome wei, as if the facebook timeline. :/




Bersih 3.0, going? i wish i can.

♥our lips must always be sealed
6:29 PM

22 April 2012
Ain't good, tonight.



♥our lips must always be sealed
11:57 PM

21 April 2012
but good good lifeeeeee (:


even I'm now enjoying my holiday, yet having bad sleeping quality recent nights.. 
hate waking up in the middle of the night and thought that nightmare are real :/ 
i guess I've been thinking too much during daytime and caused my dream about them, 
nightmares bothered me so much, some of them even related to real life, don't come true please :X





want-to-do-list are so long,  
like coming along with dreams, 
and yet am lacking of motivation :s 
I want to learn foreign language so badly, 
but of course i should improve my english better first. 


 I don't mind hanging outside for whole day long,
as long as i can feel the outside world, 
i don't mind staying home whole day TOO,
 as long as there's food and my own entertainment ! (:

♥our lips must always be sealed
7:16 PM

19 April 2012
I'm good, no worries (:



I miss you.





♥our lips must always be sealed
11:18 PM

yum yum


ohhhh my eldest brother 21st birthday! my turn next year.. ohhh NOOOOO :s
bought chocolate indulgence, mmmmmmm mahal sikit but not bad :DDD
that guy laughed when he saw the word FATTY ahahahahhaha! :X
bro ain't fat anymore but still can't take this word away from him :p
wishing him all the best in his studies and future,
having happiness in his relationship with his girl..
and please dont heavy colour light sister pleasEEEEE xD

happy birthday to the bear at sabah too! :D

♥our lips must always be sealed
9:56 PM

原來你什麼都不想要




ehhh why so cute?! HAHAHAHA. lovehim (:
his friend khalil fong coming on july.. aaarrgggh want to go! ):



♥our lips must always be sealed
8:46 PM

17 April 2012
failure.

haha. my bad. i'm sorry..

forgive me, for being like this.
sorry for giving zero respond, sorry for vanish.
thank you, for missing me, remembering me.
i still appreciate our friendship, truly.
is just that i really need to have my own time now,
different path leading us through different hard times,
you will never understand my feelings, so am i.
maybe, i wasn't by your side when you need me,
i'm really sorry. be strong, be tough. okay?

sometimes knowing a new person is tiring, she said.
because it's like a new start, introducing yourself all over again.
of course, i'm agree with it, somehow rather, i felt more tiring,
when a friend you've known for years, only lives in your past,
you changed, moving forward, and yet they never realize,
doubting you when you decided to go better. it's frustrating.

how good it is, if life are like a software, a system..
a click of UPDATES, people will know all the shits and feelings you've been through,
and you needn't to story about it, needn't to go through the bad feelings again,
most importantly, they can see the growth of your mindset and changes.





i felt bad, extremely bad,
when i see the cigarette lightened in your hand.
a sense of uncomfortable, with sorrow, and frustration.
heart sinking and aching, reminding my failure as a friend.
is not about the habit, is about what makes you addicted to this habit,
i blame no one but myself, for giving less attention and caring when you need it,
and makes you rely on the escapism that brought by the nicotine.
what am i doing? when the first time you touched this shit?
what am i doing? when your lung first inhaled with all those harmful smoke?
we always hope the best and healthy life for the people you love around you,
ain't this pathetic? when we ourselves that becoming the puppet of these shits.

"You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see,
but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel."

♥our lips must always be sealed
3:21 PM

16 April 2012
amani. I'm a typical supporter :o

oh yeah, jam jam won the award, unbelievable haha!
but i havent watch the movie ehhhhhh :/

you know one of the best thing in concert was singing your favorite songs with your favorite singer along with the CROWD, accompany with fireworks somemore :D beyond and zhang zhen yue was awesome, their voice their charisma their hot bodies AHAHAHAHA :P and jam jam banyak pattern, don't really sing properly unlike when his debut lol, and yet can't help, he is too cute, not many people can style with the curry puff hair haha!

went for my brother's early birthday celebration dinner last night, shogun the buffet. it was okay okay only, i rather spend all those money in sushi zanmai :X however only able to watch the last few award after the dinner, congrats to You are the apple of my eye AGAIN :D can't stop laughing when they giving their speech HAHA. and get to know that jamjam won the award, it was a relief as i was worried that he'll lose it and get upset but now am just happy for it. double happiness weeeeeee :D







i hope this will last longer. please.
negative feelings hiding and ready to make trouble.

♥our lips must always be sealed
5:45 PM

14 April 2012
HEHE :D

covered the other eye,
hide away all the shit and sadness,
I'm happy now! :D

it's love and supportive. yeaaah (:

♥our lips must always be sealed
2:34 PM

4am is cominggggg.

photo above originated from him.
can't wait, to listen to his live singing (:
f i n a l l y g e t c l o s e r t o g e t h e r.

maybe. I'm now putting all my importance on them,
one of those who live in my heart, my imagination.
lifting me up and keeps my heart beats spiritedly.
sounds absurd? yeah, i felt the same way too.
it kinda annoyed me when i go for him but not ...
i get excited about him but not people around me.
people used to put their hope and trust on god or whatever,
I'm just putting it on them, not too much, but perfectly enough.

:D






hey. i failed, as your friend.
forgive me, for being like this.

♥our lips must always be sealed
3:37 AM

me gusta! :D

i hold the book even when i fall sleep, i felt secure by that.
also seeking for security through covering my face with book when sleeping.
guess this is one of the reason i have bad skin condition :x

i love books, i enjoy reading. loving the smell and touchy-feel of paper.
say hello to my new members :D book voucher paid some of the books above lol.
sink myself into the world of wording is great, fully concentration and no disturbance (;
somehow, my reading speed is kinda slow down recently,
not sure whether if i can finish them within this holiday sighhh.
i don't know why, hate this. am getting old or my focus loss.



♥our lips must always be sealed
3:13 AM

3am is cominggggg :o

Grabbed this from facebooook.
the bear, enjoy your holiday at sabah okayss (;
the heaaa, stuck in the past and regrets, teruk than me lol -.-
the haopo, no beer for you next time, TIDO JEEEEEEEE LOL.
Sometimes less is great, depends. I've always heard stories,
different people and different mindset, various version.
and guess what? I've get used to it and ... numb?
i always tell myself not to take things seriously.
firstly, it's non of my business *hate this thought though
secondly, i can do nothing but just kept silence.
in the end, trouble avoided and less conflict (:


♥our lips must always be sealed
2:47 AM

13 April 2012
-_-


PEH.

anti social network feeling great.
money flies too.
fuckyeaah.



♥our lips must always be sealed
2:42 PM

10 April 2012
bigbigbigbigbigBANG is love.

Transforming to annoying orange soon :O
ate sooooooo much oranges recently omg.

and I'm here missing the cool weather already..
laughter and beer played their role well,
two days one night, ahhhh another nice dream (:

indeed, LOVE is the thing, as long as it existing.
we will NEVER mind even if there are weakness and imperfect,
in fact we will accept and continue loving no matter what.




i enjoy cave hiding wei. sorry.


♥our lips must always be sealed
9:42 PM

08 April 2012
Don't you remember. Remember when

几米的画册,世界别为我担心,
你知道下一句是什么吗? "我却为世界担心不已。"
总是有这一些担心,让我相信我还是爱着人们。


我不懂,我是在逃避,还是我真的复原了。
我不懂,这是好还是坏,是以前的乐观回来了,还是变得更糟。
我不懂,我是不是真的放下一切,还是我只是变得漠不关心。
我不懂,是不是过分坚强,所以看不起别人身上自己却曾拥有的软弱。
我不懂,我是不是变懒了,还是我真的无法再把心事讲给人们听,
我不懂,快乐让我的时间过得好快,但为何我却常发现我无法再相信人们?

不听旋律伤感的歌曲,不听歌词述说我曾经的心情,
就算听了,我没感觉,情绪不像以前起伏那么大。
那些记载着人们内心世界的地方,好久,没去了,
不再一个一个字去看,不再去感受别人的感受。
然后,对着部落格,开始长话短说,有时候,更是埋在心里面,
对着关心我的人们,就是感谢他们,然后笑脸,期待他们明白。
快不把自己当女生来看待,因为那只是在突显柔弱的那一面,
只是每当我快催眠成功时,月经常常提醒我,我是女的 -.-

这些改变,我知道,只因心灵受伤那一刻开始。然后。
他们说,这个学期过得好快,还真的眨眼就考试假期了,
但你却不知道,七个星期,足以让我看清楚,失去及拥有。

人们总以为我嗜酒,事实是,我只是留恋酒精带给我的麻痹,
麻痹那些记忆里的伤痛,麻痹那些现实让我感到厌恶的事实。
我说,最近想喝到烂醉的欲望减低了,很低,几乎没有,
有的只是想拿着它当作与人们聊天的陪衬品。
比起它,我更想念运动流汗带给我的快乐,
身体健康些,人也年轻些吧,而非像酒精带给我的泪水。

这些三百六十度的改变,我宁可相信是快乐让我不再嗜醉。
“我不是因为觉得幸福才笑,不是说笑着笑着就会感觉到幸福了吗?"

(:







那一天,遇上陌生人,为我祷告。


♥our lips must always be sealed
6:07 PM

I'm still alive, thank you *hearts




not about Kpop, not about the fame, not about the rank,
it just merely like how i get addicted to other singers that i love,
I love them, since year 2008. They're back, I'm back.

yet, told you, I totally failed as a fan. blek.


(:




♥our lips must always be sealed
1:28 AM

哎哎哎

他的话,他的遗憾,他的盼望。

知道的那一刻,我想撞墙,
我宁可不知道,我宁可不了解他的想法。

那么我就无须为前往流浪的路加上另一个枷锁。


♥our lips must always be sealed
12:09 AM

07 April 2012
life *BIG SMILE


I'm a naughty patient.
Fall sick during holiday.. well, I'm glad of it though,
at least it wasn't happen if I'm busy with college stuff and that..
like he said, holiday can sick as long as possible LOL -.-





♥our lips must always be sealed
5:27 PM

06 April 2012
long time ago.

a shower or a good sleep always clear my mind (:
need a place, a period of time, to accomplish my to-do-list,
then only i can really go for my dream, confidently.
and yet, the stupid thing still the biggest issue.

♥our lips must always be sealed
4:46 PM

04 April 2012
还是很害怕向现实低头,还是要热血。


无数个想法无数个阅历,带给我无数的意见。
我很清楚,文凭可以带给我的益处,还有带给他们的安心,
但我更清楚,我不介意一份低薪水的工作,不管有多么的劳累,
只求它是我的工作,也是我的兴趣,要热血的做一件事。

不想为了文凭而读,不想为了逃避社会而读。
为了要读而读,为了知识而读,是享受那过程。
我想,我是选读了科目,仔细想想,我很快乐,很热血。

我说,当初读书,是为了让他们安心,
至到现在,我还是为了他们,即使知道他们是为了我。
我想说,我会想继续享受这让人又爱又恨的生活,
可是,种种问题让我却步,让我担心,害怕。

以前总打算着读完两年就跑去流浪看世界,
但随着时间飞逝,这梦想比我想象中困难好多。
很久很久很久以前,我幻想着背包旅行,
计划着,打工存钱流浪,打工存钱流浪,
就像本地背包客作者黄爱琳那样,那样的生活。
后来,良心,责任,现实,谴责着我,叮咛着我。

我不在乎物质上的享受,我不在乎那一张文凭,
我在乎的是实在的经历,我在乎的是心灵上的充实。
你知道我只想带着它流浪看世界,可是,可是,可是...

依然思索不出一个决定来,怎么那么迷惘。







然后,金钱捆绑着我,阻挡我的去路。
自身的责任更是缠扰着我,让我只能继续在梦里想。

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:07 PM

03 April 2012
constipation.

we going party likeee!
hohohohohoholiday officially started babe :p

hello. I've lots of thing to share with you,
wait for me, wait for me, wait for me.
I've been waited for this for so long, finally.
dramas, books, peoples, trips, job, and stuff i left out,
will catch up and totally flood myself with all these :D

there was lots of feelings and memories leaving untold too.

♥our lips must always be sealed
9:05 PM

31 March 2012
road blind forever.


Today's surprise failed, but who cares, ada heart already cukup kan? (:
bodoh, they make me feel like as if today is the last day,
everyone talk like we're not going to meet anymore,
somebody used to be a joker suddenly become so serious,
thanks for treating me as good friend even we aren't same class,
oh man, we still have one more semester to go la :/

I wasn't feeling awkward, I'm just afraid of crying infront of you.
as the day of farewell is approaching, the deeper my heart sink,
millions of unwillingness, someone whom i feel so close yet so far,
someone who always be there, someone i used to avoid from chatting with,
coz he always give caring and touches the deep of the heart,
which I'm that kind that afraid of facing my own heart-felt.

still looking something for him.. aarrrgh. :s







been bothered so much lately, separation, future path, and money.
was thinking and thinking and thinking but only brings me anxiety,
money seemed to the biggest issue, damnitstrue, how about my dreams then?
and yet, thanks for a sense of happiness you brought to me,
of course, thank you twitter lol. sorry for spamming followers :p

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:43 PM

30 March 2012
mental support :3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!
steal this from your facebook, you and your daughter :D
i know I'm such a failure as your fan, lol.
even I'm having fever these few days, big bang fever, TOP,
and also Alex turner, they're so irresistible, so addictive, like you.
HAHAHAHA but i still love you, like i used to,
praying hard to make it to listen to your live singing,
by the way, give me strength for my coming two papers okay? (:
and again, happy birthdaaaaaaaay jam jam! <3


♥our lips must always be sealed
9:05 PM

29 March 2012
strong voltage. open minded.

It's accepting and learning new thing rather than saying I'm changing,
and it's more to like spending time on things i used to love.
(:


♥our lips must always be sealed
3:52 PM

25 March 2012
:D :S =_=


Overslept today, missed out the education fair.. Somehow i have my own great time self exploring at pasar seni :D you know what your heart love when the moment you stepped into the gallery, its beating lively and adrenaline flowingggg, everything seemed interesting and so attention grabbing, prices killing me too lol. loving all the creative handmade stuff and artist everywhere, if you know what artist I'm referring to, i see passion for art from them, so great (; I was planning to get something for him at first and yet failed, still looking hard for it. and yeah finally finished spending my book voucher, immaa books lover :p a new zealand guy said that i looked like Japanese, HAHAHAHAH i take it as a compliment xD you know... i brought my camera along today, it's been quite a while and i realize i felt unfamiliar with it already, need to catch up more :/ not only photography but lots more, books movies songs peoples etc etc, yeah after exam.. how nice it will be, if days are like this way, i mean, i can solo, go anywhere anytime, seeing things and meeting peoples that fresh my mind. of course, if there aren't time being stressful and busy, we wouldn't appreciate all these leisure time (:





and the musician narmi fulfilling my mind now,
"I like the feeling of being hurt and then when reach the moment of happiness it makes you feel even more being loved."




♥our lips must always be sealed
12:13 AM

23 March 2012
weird.

I am not me anymore.

♥our lips must always be sealed
12:16 AM

21 March 2012
dehydrating -.-

exercise, sweating like tearing, but a happier way (:
late steamboat dinner, gathering for once a while just great,
meeting people that never failed to make me laugh was the best ((;

maybe? I'm lonely in certain way.
but i guess in the inner most of everyone,
there are parts where they felt the same way with me right.
even.. she had mentioned and straight through my heart,
the wall, just never easy, am isolating.

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:52 PM

20 March 2012
rindu.


My heart as strong as kaspersky hahahaha! i tweeted.
i am, and yet it comes together with the feeling of insecure.
heartbeats.. dying right now. waiting to be certify dead.
strong? dying? ha ha ha. i lost my words. sorry.

♥our lips must always be sealed
8:50 PM

18 March 2012
crying lightning.

Kem princess haliza tepi tasik (:
I miss the starry night, and beautiful sunsets,
well, when i started to miss, i guess i hate here,
i take it as my own escapism, tending to runaway..
Perfect distance make people stay beautiful in my heart,
lets pretend that I'm the one who change, i felt so sick,
i rather keep distance and missing you all here,
but not let words from your mouth ruin the relationship.

I'm missing bromance, but after a deep thought,
i guess it's not about gender, it's about personality.

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:18 PM

17 March 2012
the awesome feeling of letting go.

The less you care, the happier you will be.

I'm falling in love with .. something new.
my ear loves it, like we're getting closer (:
I can't stop putting foods into my mouth,
like how i couldn't resist of you, ngeeeekk.







even it had heal, there are side effects too,
the faith is shaking, trust is collapsing.
I'm afraid of giving, afraid of losing,
afraid that I'm not being loved.

The wall I've built, it's getting thick and tall.

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:33 PM

16 March 2012
to make you feel my love with sky star.

却没有人像我,真正喜欢一个人安静的自由。







糟糕的早上,不好的预感很强烈。
谢谢你的陪伴,接下来的时间好快乐 (:

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:51 PM

15 March 2012
(:


baby you light up my world like nobody else.
weeeeeeee!







for those who doing whole-heartily, thank you (;
I've lots to update. finally done with presentation and ass,
hehe gotta be lifeless for few days as reward to myself :p

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:49 PM

13 March 2012
):

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:39 PM

11 March 2012
stomach says it all.



"never thought that democracy will be a tough issue"

"yesss, juridicial independence is just appetizer, democracy is ur main course lol"

"i rather eat shit lol"


♥our lips must always be sealed
8:25 PM

Don't you remember.

好与坏,还是很主观,但我依然相信那赤子之心,及学会欣赏。
好的照片,后期制作是为了加分,当然我的后期制作指的是基本调节。
没有好的构图,主题,想表达的信息,没有灵魂的照片,再修改也是一样。
如果说修改过就不是原件,那请不要剪辑你的录影片。
如果你说一张照片好看是因为它被修饰过,那我想说,你不懂。





♥our lips must always be sealed
8:02 PM

09 March 2012
I'm a freak.

traffic jam gave me chances to see the beauty of sunset and silhouette,
we should always slow down our pace and get closer to wonderment.





gaining the stupid confidence back superb slowly,
digesting and absorb history and knowledge,
well, just giving the best and awaiting next Thursday! (:

always make clear of your own priority,
perhaps studies wasn't your first choice,
and yeah, why do i care if yourself don't even bother?
keep silent, if your heart weren't here while others does,
even I've lose myself, never influence other by negative thinking.







"不用功读书,还看不起那些成绩好的学生的人”

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:00 PM

08 March 2012
......


sick. lost. worried. grumpy. fed up.
however, it always going to have an end, i know.
and yet the process is indeed killing and frustrating.
i want to laugh like that and says WHATEVER LA.








attitudes that offended me killing the relationship slowly.

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:01 PM

06 March 2012
still, fuck you.


Sometimes a lifeless thing will treat you better than a human.
It's been more than a year, thanks for being there for me,
productions, rainy days, hard times, countless roads,
gave me strength and play your role well.
i know, it's just shoes, so what.

Rest in peace.







fuck you. sincerely.
i know i will never make it if i hate you,
i tried, i did, my brain waving white flag. yes, fuck you.
my stupidity graded up everytime i faced you,
i never suffer from headache until i get into college,
and yeah, these day it tortured me frequently, because of you.
Convincing myself you're a knowledge that responsible for me to know,
i will try to love you, TRYFUCKINGHARD, and yeah, FUCK YOU.

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:55 PM

05 March 2012
fuck la.

♥our lips must always be sealed
9:18 PM

04 March 2012
No one is guaranteed for tomorrow, so, i love you (:

"No matter what you do, there will always be someone who thinks differently.
So concentrate on doing what you know in your heart is right."





awww weekend always the best,
i can sleep eat read watch pehhh like a boss,
need not to deal with people is the best damn thing,
haha sorry sorry sorry kawanssss i still cave hiding :p

wishing i have more book voucher,
too much of books but limited money make me emo LOL!
still, i treated my stomach very good these day wee wee weeeee :D
goodbye my weekend, two assignments and one presentation awaiting me zz,
play badminton this Wednesday yeaah! it's been a while since like three years ago -.-

come on remember? stay strong :DD

anyways, getting into vintage retro art stuff, irresistible!
and I'm getting numb of some songs in my laptop,
something pleasant to my ear pleaseeeeeeee?







my rationality slap me every since my heart go for you,
it knows me well, it knows that i haven't let go shits,
i guess i need a long long long time to heal this, lol.

treating people equally is our weakest point,
the reason i get a little hatred over you,
also the reason i falls so bad for peoples, hurts though.

but know what? indeed i treated you unfairly,
coz i placed you at somewhere special than others,
the effing unfair part which let me down over and over again,
guess you will never realize this, you had prejudice to me too.

It just a detour, i will be back,
coz real friend will never leave.

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:19 PM

03 March 2012
你笑了所以我也笑了 :D




那时小小的你还未学会叹气
你哈哈笑的样子依然没变
时间走了 谁还在等呢

世界太复杂
你说单纯很难


我当然都明白




♥our lips must always be sealed
11:17 PM

02 March 2012
i chase after shadow.


it was the time when my heart beats energetically,
somehow.. anyhow.. now, call me Lai PEH Xian =_=

tomorrow's schedule full,
yet i dont feel like moving at all,
so sucks being so dead for everything,
sorry for ignoring the world, sorry laaa :/

♥our lips must always be sealed
10:11 PM

01 March 2012
my laptop got skin hehehehe :D

my heart beats so slow recently, adrenaline blocked, i thought I'd die..
and yeah, meeting them finally make my heart beats slightly faster :D







You can count on me like 1 2 3, I'll be there.
coincidentally this song was played that time.

♥our lips must always be sealed
11:42 PM

because i couldn't feel you.

people leave me breathless, as if a rock weighing on my heart,
I'm upset, i even asked him to make me cry, to release, to feel better,
no, I'm stupid, i needn't all these bullshit, it's going to be endless,
even it'd shattered into pieces, i will fix it by my own,
i lose my faith on people, so what.
Survive and smiling (((:








you let me go that easy,
i even thought that you'll try to fix it.
indeed, I'm truly nothing to you,
you said you care, no.. please.


♥our lips must always be sealed
1:48 AM